How Melanie Martinez groomed her audience
This is what happens when everything is labeled as art.
When is it too far? Is this “Edgy art” or is it something far worse?
I want to preface this read by saying that I have been a Melanie Martinez fan since her debut on the voice. I knew every unreleased song, seen every performance there was on youtube, new all the chords that she played on her guitar.
I wore a bow in my hair and hoped one day I would be able to have the two tone hair. I consumed every single piece of media that she put out. Melanie being only about 5 years older than me, it she influenced every single thing I did.
I related to her as far as having a hard time at school with bullying and not fitting in. I spent my lunches singing to the special needs class because I felt like I wanted to make someone happy with music as I myself was not happy with how I was being treated.
I sang her covers and auditioned for every show I could at school and recorded myself and put it on youtube. I would beg my mom to get me the dresses like Melanie wore, peterpan collared and some brown oxford shoes and lacey socks. I felt like I knew her.Being 14 at the time, I was moody, hormonal, and felt like the world was always ending. Along with very strict parents who did not let me participate in things the other kids did like trips,dances, etc. and I was so embarassed of my flip phone while other kids had their iphones.
Nothing about me fit in. Not how I looked or dressed, not how I spoke, or how many friends I had.
I didn’t listen to pop music that other kids were blasting on the radio. I was listenting to Melanie’s live performances. Melanie made me feel seen especially when she released her album Crybaby.
Crybaby was somthing I was called all the time for expressing my hurt or what I was feeling at the time.
As she sang this song, it described everything I had been going through.Even years later and to this day, it is a song I think I am always going to relate to. The album is cute and creepy, pastel and eerie. This was something I wish I had made, if I was given the opportunity. I was living through this album. I knew every single lyric and awaited every single music video.
I watched her interviews over and over wondering it would be like to be able to be a music artist. I graduated high school and chose the path of music (education) to please my parents but knew my plans of changing to music industry studies to be something in the music industry.
I watched Melanie grow and saw how her music united other people that were also going through really rough things. But then Melanie said this in an interview. I don’t know why it just hit me when I watched this interview many years later and now realize she was “making up stories” about sexual assault, kidnapping, abuse, manipulation and things that her audience actively were going through.
No. It’s for awareness I kept thinking in my mind and was assured by other fans. But then I met the real fans of hers and they were foul. I had gained traction from doing Melanie covers on Tik tok and it was a living hell. It was so bad I had to get a restaining order and go to court get protective measures.
This is mirroring the events and things that they did to Timothy Heller. They quite literally bullied her off the internet. They got everything all her accounts and contacted her family and the only thing they didn’t get to was her bank account. They actively ruined her life. On discord servers planning what fake “evidence” they were going to create but also showing how much they enjoyed doing it because it was for Melanie.
One of her friends recently commented on Timothy’s tiktok saying
“you should have enjoyed it”
On what earth is that okay? This is a severe parasocial relationship. A dangerous parasocial relationship.Telling someone that they should have enjoyed their rape because their rapist is “attractive” is mental illness point blank period.
This might sound dramatic but I truly believe they would kill people for Melanie. From the death threats I recieved to myself and my unborn baby at the time. Saying that they would drown my baby and take out my intestines. And they still wonder why I don’t like people who are fans of Melanie? How can you not wrap your head around the fact that these people and I don’t care if their children doing this to me, they are damaging real lives. My anxiety was increased and my bpd was over the top because I was always on edge.Not to mention I was pregnant and worried about my baby. I still have (diagnosed) ptsd from this incident of being stalked and harassed for almost two years and I still have nightmares of my baby being killed by this person.
To this day people are still harassing Timothy Heller for telling her story of rape. And for the longest time I ignored it. Now if you’re going to bring up Timothy’s “character” and that she’s a “bad person”, so are you. So am I. Everyone has done something “bad”. And even if she is this terrible person (again fake evidence made by Melanie’s fans” that doesn’t mean the rape didn’t happen.
“She never said no to what we chose to do together”
This is a quote that Melanie’s fans always say to use the full quote. This is admitting to raping Timothy. This is textbook what a rapist says. Everything that Melanie has been able to get away with because she’s a woman and weaponizing her child fan base is horrible. She has hurt so many people and doesn’t care because she can buy her new house in the Hollywood Hills while people are suffering from her fans.
She encouraged her fans to harass Timothy. Foaming at the mouth 12 year olds who are trauma bonded to someone who is profiting off of their pain. I am tired of constantly coming into contact with her fans. And I can’t imagine how Timothy feels. I can’t imagine how hurt she must have felt seeing her rapist be praised and move up in her music career because of her fans silencing everyone who ever decided to speak up.
I know I will loose followers because of this post and you can watch my youtube video hear about her coloring book. I really fear her fans and their unhealthy attachment to her is disturbing.
If a celebrity is “the reason you wake up in the morning” that genuinely distrubs me. A person that doesn’t know you exist, doesn’t care if you exist, and is profiting off of your trauma and pain, that is mental illness. Melanie knows this, she knows she has a child audience and knows exactly what she was doing with her crybaby era.
She exposed children (and yes it’s still the parents responsibility for their child’s media consumption) however I cannot blame them because of the pastel bubblegum exterior that Melanie exuded. She confirms in interviews(see linked youtube video) that she knows why children had gravitated towards her and it was from her pastel child like aesthetic. OF COURSE children are going to be interested in something that was visually catering to them.
Melanie's coloring book has been trending on tik tok and people who have been through/survived CSAM and Child on Child assault/abuse have said and continue to bring awareness that these images are what CSAM is. This coloring book has been out for ten years and now because her original fans have grown up and their frontal lobe has developed are realizing this was grooming. @facingthedark on tik tok explains CSAM very well and how her coloring book fits into the category of CSAM and shares the red flags. I really encourage you, the reader to look into the evidence as well as those who are survivors. We need to uplift them and really listen to them.
There is so much more that I had not touched upon but I wanted to share my story because this amount, this severity of parasocial relationship should never get to this extent. Me recieving texts on my phone and being sent photos of myself from my stalker that had started from me posting Melanie covers, is NOT NORMAL. TWO YEARS LATER and they were still harassing me.
These people need severe therapy because something isn’t right with their mentality of having a celebrity savior.
